what would you do if .....................

if you know your day is just around the corner and you will be finally return to God??? what whould you do if you dont have much time to tell the person you love that you love him and never want him to hurt you??? what would you do if you keep on hurting but your time is just passed by and you run out of it??? what would you do when just you and yourself know the exact situation and the possibility outcome????what would you do if you are in the situation?
ME???
if the only time i have is running out, i would like to seek forgiveness from ALLAH for all my sins, seek forgiveness from both of my parents, seek forgiveness from my siblings and family, seek forgiveness from my friends, and from him, for all sins and mistakes i've made.
WHAT WOULD I DO???
i pray hard for the happiness of my beloved ones, as i can't be there to cherish them. i pray hard for my own happiness for the little moment i have.although it is hurting me so damn badly.
WHAT WOULD I DO.....
i will give all my love as long as i can...i will love all my beloved ones with all my heart..i would like to give them as much love because i don't want them to forget me. and i want them to feel my love...
WHAT WOULD I WANT????
i just want people that i love happy and never cry or sad because of me....i would want to feel the love from everyone...although i might get hurt of getting his love..but thats what i want if the day is just around the corner.
WHAT I WANT......
i want to feel the happiness and to embrace all the precious moment of my life.
to wipe all the tears and to be able to achieve what i want before the day comes to me.. to be able to let him know how much is this love for him.and not to regret my mistakes...as long as i can be together with him, i think there is nothing to be regret about.
WHAT WOULD I WISH?????
i wish for God to extend the time longer, i wish that people surrounding me realise the painful side of my bright smile, i wish people realise my love towards them, i wish people would forgive my mistakes and give another chance to love me, and i wish for the happiness...yes the happines...
WHAT WOULD I DO IF THE TIME IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER???
i will seek for my happiness before i regret it..
i will seek for the love...

It is Okay

it is okay actually to feel down sometimes
it is okay actually to feel sad
it is okay to cry
it is okay to give up...
it is just fine....
because as human being,we cannot escape all of this kind of feelings. we cannot run from going through hard time.
so it is just okay....orang yang tak ada masalah dalam dunia nih mungkin orang gila je kot..
or babies and kanak2.. but they also have problems right???
so, memang semua insan dlm dunia tak akan lari dari masalah....sebab tu kalau kita kadang2 give up sbb apa yang kita usahakan tak membuahkan hasil, memang kita akan rasa sedih...tak kan nak happy pulak right??? insane lah kot dah usaha something sampai nak mati suddenly tak gain anything pun then, happy gila pulak...hahahaha.
tapi kita kena sedar, derita hari ini, mesti ada bahagia hari esok.....Insyaallah.. Allah Maha Mengasihani lagi Maha Penyayang...jadi percayalah... THERE WILL BE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL...
get someone to share your feeling and thought..because you will be at relief after that...because if you just keep it inside, one day you will be putting too much pressure inside which will lead you to collapse....and never get better. or wrote everything you feel inside in a diary... it helps a lot to reduce the sadness...next, doa...Sebab you will never be alone. ALLAH is always there for you...luahkanlah dalam doa.. Trust me... you eill be at ease and at peace...
so it is okay to cry when you sad...scream out loud...let the pain go... its hard i know...but just let it go...Pray a lot.....Doalah...tawakal dan usaha....yang penting JANGAN PERNAH BERHENTI MENCUBA. carilah jawapan kenapa masalah itu membelenggu diri kita.....kalau derita itu akan bawa bahagia, it is okay to choose DERITA....

Why????

kenapa kadang2 bila kita dah cuba, tapi hasilnya tetap sama????bukan tak nak usaha lebih, tapi bila kita tak dapat something yang kita nak...rasa give up kan??? perlukah aku give up....kenapa susah dia nak sedar?????apa itu PENGORBANAN?????aku kah yang salah????sudahlah...aku dah give up...tak nak try lagi dah

LA TAHZAN

the meaning is 'Don't Be sad'.The book that i've bought for RM 10 but actually its teach me a lot about how Allah gives hopes to us. That is why LA TAHZAN. 'Dont Be Sad' as Allah always be there for you. Of course we are sad when we've got problem, or when we lost things that we wished not to be lost for the rest of our life... but that is the reality.... semua yang kita peroleh dalam dunia hanyalah pinjaman dari Allah. Macam lagu 21 guns by greenday, nothings ever bulit to last rite????? actually im in a kind of very pathethic and sad life......haha...and yes i am sad....but what to be sad about???? LA TAHZAN. 'Don't Be Sad'. Allah tak menguji hambanya yang tak boleh melalui musibah yang diberikan.... Always remember that musibah or difficulties that we face today is because God loves us.... untuk menguji keiimanan kita sebagai muslims. So what to be sad about???? kita seringkali lupa, kadang-kadang leka....that is one of the reasons knp musibah melanda kita even though kita tak minta.. sebab lumrah manusia nih mudah lupa.....how to overcome our sadness???? easy... bersyukur dengan apa yang kita, berdoa, dan as simple as mengucapkan "Innalillahhiwainnalillahirojiun...". Insyaallah.... musibah kita akan diringankan.... apa yang kita lalui sekarang mungkin tak sebesar masalah orang lain... jadi bersyukarlah....bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita dan apa yang masih kita miliki... percayalah dan yakinlah dengan ALLAH....even at one time you just give up and down, and feel there is no hope, just believe that there will always hopes for you to count on it and to believe in it... you wil never regret it. hanya orang yang tak nak beri peluang dalam hidup dia saja yang akan kelak menyesal. Apa yang kita harus lakukan ialah, carilah peluang itu.... hopes is everywhere....even we are sad to death...beleive that there is alwyas happiness for us in future. Insyaallah....

I'm a brand new

today, I'll be thinking of what am i supposed to improve for tomorrow. Not thinking about the yesterday because yesterday is past. Past means already happened. so whats to think about the past?? we can just improving ourselves day by day. past is history... history should be the guidance for ourselves to keep getting better and to have improvement. history is crucial of course... because we learned from history. from the mistakes especially. mistakes can be repeated but we can prevent it. whats the matter is future. I've tried harder every single day to be a brand new. to forget all those things that happened before today. because i want to make sure that this improvements that I've made will benefits me in the future. will changing people perceptions towards me... most importantly to change the way Mr.X thinks about me. I'm used to be pampered by those people surrounding me. that makes me like a super bitchy when i always wanted people to follow my order. But i always keep forgetting that's not all what we want we can get. Quotation from Mr. X actually. he taught me how to be independent. learning is hard... Experiences is the best teacher actually. When you'll get new things to learn from your experience, its actually a wonderful thing. and people always get to their senses when they lost something precious but they don't even being thankful when the precious thing is in front of their own eyes. it is sad to lost something that is very precious in our lives. but everybody deserve a second chance. yes. they will always chances for you to keep on trying. that makes me never giving up of trying. What the fuck to give up so easily.. keep on trying. That the best thing... who told me??? Mr. X told me so....so i am no longer the super bitchy who always set her mind that she can't do things or going through the hard times alone... because I'll never be alone or being alone.... Allah is always there for me. Am i right???? the best listener for me... I'm not sooo gooooood in religious, but it doesn't mean that I'm not practicing it... I'm proud of being a Muslims. And i am so thankful to be born in Islam. Because Islam taught the believers not to give up easily. There is always help from Allah. I believe in Allah.. With all my heart. And i Believe with HIS helps. And I believe that one day all my doa and hopes and wish will come true, as long as i never giving up and keep trying and praying. INSYAALLAH, I'm going to be a brand new :)